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Wednesday, June 28, 2006

I haven't been updatin this blog nor my blog for quite some time now i guess, coz there hasn't been much to say:) Well, it has been so HOT for the past few days so what my housemate and I did was to leave our apartment door a small crack (coz there's air conditionin in the our 'corridor') and I had my cooler so all worked out well for our 93 degrees day. Hehehe.

All is well now I guess for my housemate, though there are still a few issues. I hate to say this, but the guy's a Jerk period. In the meantime, I have so much to do on my to-do list.
1) Stop procrastinating and get my driver's licence.
2) Get my resumes for my internships done.
3) Probably start lookin for cheap airfares etc, to go to NY for next Spring.
These are the major events I guess, shall not go into the rest, though I can't wait to hit the slopes again. YEh!!Sorry, but I really really do love snowboarding despite not being able to fit in the stereotype. I've yet to tried skiing yet, but i will do this time when I go to melb. For those of you who gets a chance to go the Vancouver (during winter) do check out Whistler. It is one of the most beautiful place to go, either for skiing/snowboarding or just to around the foot of the mountains (btw they actually have two mountains you can go on!!).

Anyways, when han was in America han and I watch Capote together and han said that Philip Seymour Hoffman freaks him out hahaha. Undeniably his one of the best actors in this time, yet there's something about him you can't quite put a finger on. But i have to say, the most disturbing movie that I have ever seen is 8MM(by Nicolas Cage). I was just so shaken after I watched that movie.

I can't wait for pirates of the carribean II comes out, sorry han, but I really can't help it, Johny Depp is just SO SO SO SO SO SO attractive:) I still love you:) hehehe. Also, i can't wait to catch the movie the devil wears prada, and click. For those who haven't seen the movie "fast and the furious: Tokyu drift" I don't recommend that you do watch it if you actually have to $7.50 for it (that's the price in sg right han?). I was also going to say, for those of you who do complain that either $7.50 or $10.50 for a ticket is ex, you have no idea what my housemate and I pay for movie tickets here. Although we can get can matinee fare before 5pm, at $7.50, its actually US$7.50 and even with a student price after we have to pay US$10.50, adults (US$12.50). It totally sucks so we usually end up sneakin into other movies to make our money worth (only in selected cinemas)hehehe. Ok,back to the fast and the furious, I think my housemate and I laughed half the time or so, coz the part where they had scenes with japanese girls dressing pretty skimpy aren't japanese at all. Hahaha. THey were totally Asian Americans, and the dressing were none of what real japanese girls would wear. Further, my housemate and I were discussing how they had Asian Americans, Koreans, etc, to speak in Japanese which they weren't even having correct pronounciations. And don't get me started on Americans speaking Japanese, it was like you said what??My housemate's korean japanese and she couldn't even understand it!!beat that!!hahaha. The storyline, was TACKY EXTREMELY TACKY!!the way the main character went to japan and fitting in a japanese school was utterly stupid coz he doesn't even understand japanese at all. Ok, enough of my bad reviews about, but on the lighter note, guys that drift and can speed are totally attractive. Although, I do wanna do those someday soon. Han, can i borrow your car? Plz...hehehe:)I love you. Hehehe.

Shall stop typin here for now, but will update soon:) And han has set another bloggy for the 'mushy' stuff as he calls it, which i can't deny does freak me out sometimes too hehehe. Just click on "han han" from the previous entry:)

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6/28/2006 10:07:00 AM


Saturday, June 17, 2006

I have to apologize here to han for not spending as much time as could these few days, because I was spending almost all of my time with my housemate. Sorry han. Next, I want to thank han so so so very much for taking a half day off on thursday to spend it with me, because he felt bad not being able to spend much time with me on Wednesday. Thank you han han. Your the sweetest!!

I guess many a time it is the effort that you put in relationships that actually help pull through anything. If one party were to not want it, the relationship would break and finally both would fall apart. Its been almost one and a half years since you went into army, and i can't believe but we're almost there han!!:)

Anyways, I don't really have much to write about,so take care all!!bye!!

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6/17/2006 03:41:00 PM


Thursday, June 15, 2006

This was a previous blog from my other blog:)

Hmmm...Why do we need money, seeing life is ultimately meaningless?

This is my reason:
It is true that life is meaningless, but aren't creatures that always seem to have to find a meaning to something? Especically life! But the truth is, we can't? We can't really explain everything, and soon realize after that life is not rational. Hence, we look towards religion, or even a thing to deal with our problems of immortality, or the fact that no matter how much we hope in life, we will always be disappointed (in most cases). The truth is, why hope? Why delude ourselves in this? Why not do something about it if you want it. In camus argument, it explains that it is through existence that our essence come about. So thus, when we don't hope, we will be free to do anything we want without any restrictions. It is through this freedom that gives us the meaning to life. Life should then be thought of as living in quantity instead of quality (in his words - live life like an actor, where we will be free to be whatever we want to be, live numerous life times! For example, as a "playboy" "or playgirl" you can be whatever you want to be or whatever your lover wants. And give it your all, but never be too attached, for all will come to an end when you die. Afterwhich, break up with that person and go on again with another. That way,you will never be able to compare, because each relationship is perfect in its own way, no one is better than the other or rather there is no point in comparing because life is meaningless. Thus, when we see things as uncomparable we will not devalue life)

Most importantly, I believe is that in order for us human beings to believe that our lives do add up to something and that life is not meaningless is through monetary things. This to many is our "accomplishments" to say that we did so many things and so many sacrifices that we have finally walked to this point of our.

Finally, I would like to add that if life was meaningless why don't we all commit suicide? This as Camus says, is the opposite and the worst thing anyone can do. For this simple reason, by commiting suicide your not doing anything, your just sitting back and giving up. In fact, one should revolt! Revolt by living one's life living and dying many time over and over again (like the lives of actors). We shouldn't be tied down by our limitations or final fate, we should make the most of it!! Thus, but not restricting ourselves to anything, we will realize that life is full of constant possiblities!!

If you guys have any opinions or anything else to add, do feel free to leave a msg on the tagboard:) In the meantime, take care all, and i'm off to bed!!


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6/15/2006 01:25:00 PM


Sunday, June 11, 2006

I have never felt so strongly in my life before, or rather a sense of strong contentment till I was in this relationship. Certainly we have our ups and downs and like other couples, or having it worst, our relationship is based on being together for a few mths then parting for the rest of the year. But until today, I didn't know how lucky I was.

Today,I slept at around 4am. Got woke up at around 5 or 6 am I think, by a text msg. Initially,I thought it was from Han,but when I opened it, it was from my housemates' bf. It said that they had broken up and he asked me to look after her. I replied saying I will. It didn't really hit me, till I actually thought about what happened. Though they have only been together for 1mth, I could tell my housemate would be deeply effected by it. I call han, immediately after realizing coz I was just shocked!!He did this on the day he was going to leave for Hawaii. Then my cell rang, this time it was from my housemate (yes, though we live together, we still call each other and send each other sms's or even MSN) she was devasted. I got off the phone with han, and spoke to her for over 3 hrs. The truth is, I didn't really know what to say. I could console everyone in the world,but somehow,I just couldn't for her. Maybe coz I know too well how she felt, coz I would too if it happened to me. But, it was just hard. I didn't know what to say, you should cry,or you shouldn't. It all happened so fast.

This made me realize that despite our difficulties what han and I want is the same thing, and we're willing to work on it. In a relationship, the most important thing is the willingness to try and everything. And once, one party's not willing to do so, the relationship would be broken. Honesty, one of the most easiest but yet hardiest to do in the world. Sometimes being honest in a relationship isn't enough, you have to be honest to yourself. I don't claim to know the full story of what happened, but I do hope that my housemate will get better. He is an utter JERK, and i'm not embarrassed to say that nor do I feel mean to do so. I hate to be judgemental but this is when one needs to be!!

Thus, I guess I'm lucky. I'm very luck to have han as my first:) Thank you han so much for everything. Lovin my Squiey!!

On a lighter note, hope everyone's enjoying themselves watchin world cup and all:) Till then, take care and bye!!

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6/11/2006 09:00:00 AM


Saturday, June 10, 2006

I know its been a long time since I've blogged or even done anything sweet for you han. But, I've got a surprise for you! I know you won't get to eat it,coz your in Singapore,and its been something I've wanted to do. So,here it is. And as you know,I can't do this in Singapore under circumstances. So, here goes...


Surprise 1 (the box) Fine, its not mine, its sooni's:) hehehe.

Surprise 2: the original (there's korean BBQ pork, furikake, corn in Mayo - wanted to put it in a cup cake thingy,but i seem to have run outta it)


Surprise 3: the egg (everything as above with an extra egg and ketchap) Sorry,its my first time making a bento,so I hope you don't mind:)


Surprise 4: the finale (everything as above and a soup!!just a plain jap soup (seaweed) flavored, seaweed, and a pumpkin)

Ok, fine, I know that this isn't really a surprise. But I do hope that you would still like it,cause I did really make it for you. I know it isn't very perfect, and worst of all you won't be able to eat it, but I hope it will mean something to you and know that I <3>

I realized that in relationships, the hardiest part is to maintain it. And recently, I know that we haven't had the best. The important thing i learnt I learn is though we have been together for quite some time we should never take each other for granted. It seems that we're learning everyday huh? Anyhow, thanks for everything han:) I <3>

Hmm...on a lighter side of note. Yesterday was a kick off for the world cup, hope everyone had fun, while those that were better, i hope they were winning!! Good Luck!! Though i missed it, as I was studying for my history final. *sigh*. I hope I do get it there though, seeing that I don't have cable and the World cup isn't big here *sigh*. The curse, the curse I tell you. hehehe.

Anyways, I did the bento while you were sleeping and was hoping to surprise you when you get up,so I hope you'll see it soon. BYE all and take care!!

L Squicoon/Squiankey!!


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6/10/2006 10:19:00 AM


Saturday, June 03, 2006

Hey hey baby how have u been hope u been sleeping really well, i missed u so much and well i studied and stuf but still i think of u.

The trip to america was a real shout out of the love i have for my baby and proud to have. U are the best thing to happen to me and with out u i would not have ever been so glad. I could continue with the stuff we did but i guess u filled up tat part first but i guess u left me the honours of how we felt.

whirl of emotions , anxeity , caution, fear and all engulfing my body. ( is she going to hold me when she see me, does she still have the love for me and am i going to be pulled over again) all this thoughts rushing to me all at once like a flood and tanking me like a little boy. Yes baby i am nervious to see u cause its u. U have came from so long to define the who the how and the where i am.. And thus absoultely my sun goddess.. my every thing.. And though through all ya waking me up i still love u so much more.
America was really quite nice to be able to steal those kisses once gain and hold u like no bodies business. I love the way u feel on me, the touch the eyes and ya smile.. All beeming on me like the rain and yet so gentle to the touch and yet so complete. I loved to disturb u during the movies sneaking those glances at u while u were not looking and kissing those cheeks when u where dreaming.
The meals u cook were excellent and just right in every way , while i guess u cant go wrong with ingredients like love ( plus a little MSG,kidding). I missed it , i miss it, i need it, i need u !!But suddenly all in a flurry i was rushed out of there and i break with displease.. My baby i m sorry i couldnt stay but i promise u i will not be away for long.. I missed u so..(luckly i can have u soon YEH!!!)

Usually i write u long words and go on and on, while today as i know of ya sort attention span i shall write instead an ode to u.. My dear..my everything .. i call it

Romance de amour
Those words spoken in spanish
This love yet in a different language
Than might there be hope in man
Thus i hope u would understand
The sweets i dispense for she
This nonsense she does not need
Though heart is of the half
These actions speaks for all
The rose on the cupbroad rack
The knee before the keel
The lips that locks
The smiles to the sighs
To the touches that never tires
The language can not love
Thus the theives can not thrive
For my love is never in dire
Through deeds and desire
The madame de missus
Romance even Me

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6/03/2006 03:21:00 PM