I don't know why but I have a sudden urge of penning down every stream of thought I have. It may be irrational but somehow, I just don't give a damn what others think. Maybe its because of han, maybe I know that as long as I have him what others think don't matter as he knows who i really am. For some reason, I can't even be bothered reading or checking other people's blog (those who know me will know that I usually do check out ppl's blog pretty often cause I'm just that bored. Hahaha:) ) but now I feel that there's nothing that matter more than just spending time with han and realizing that there's so much more to life.
Its New Yr's eve tomorrow so I'd like to wish everyone a Happy New YR!!
I'll you know you very much, and I hope you feel the same too. I don't wanna think about it anymore.
Anyways, thank you for spending all your time with me. And I really do appreciate everything you've done and put up with. Thank you baby han.
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12/30/2006 11:50:00 PM
Friday, December 29, 2006
A day well spent!
Today was a fun filled day, but most importantly it has been really really productive for both han and me. Hahaha:)We met in the morning with the difference of me being late and heading down to PS to go to the National Museum (Thank you han for planning this whole day out:)I really appreciate it). We had the best food at Novenos (I don't remember the spelling, its in the first restaurant you see when you go into the museum)its a $$ restaurant but it was worth every single cent right han? Hehehe. I had the foie gras, while han had some weird pasta with fish (P.S don't expect the servings to be big). Also, we had a lemon grass sorbet with sour lychee and a green tea creme bulee. All I can say that the taste was "interesting" period. But I guess han and I have just found our favorite restaurant!!hahaha:)Quality is the word!!hahaha:)
After that han and I went down to bugis to get my hair cut at Chapter 2 which he had made an appt for me:) Thank you baby han:) It was with Fun wong the creative director and I guess the hair cut was ok. But we'll see if it lasts:) Hahaha. I'll probably try Ivan the next time though, because I heard ravings on him. Anyways, Han and I caught "a night at the museum". It was 2 1/2 stars I would say, it wasn't WOW, but..so yeh. Thank you han for all the trouble that you went through to make this day as perfect as you can. XXXXX
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12/29/2006 10:10:00 PM
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Merry late Christmas!
This last weekend was spent very peacefully with han. We didn't do much except spending time with each other, no movies, no shopping (except for Christmas Eve, on han's family - 2 hrs to be exact), no nothing, but still, I enjoyed every single moment of it. On Sunday, I went to han's place for a swim, Yes, I know it was raining the whole day but it still enjoyed single moment of it. There is nothing more that I ever want than be with you, and that is the best Christmas gift you can ever give me. Thank you han (no, i'm not being sarcastic). I really did enjoy myself, and I guess that's the thing that will scare me the most. I guess Christmas or not it didn't matter to me as long as I have you.
You can try to keep up with everything, but you'll never be able to keep up with time. Its the time of the year again where I'm forced to leave. January 2 will be the last day I can see you or might not be. It will be months before I see you again and it will be next month where we'll see where our future leads us. I don't want long distance anymore because I just want to be with you, but yet it might be inevitable. I miss you han, I wanna be with you. Its silly, especially for a rational and down-to-earth person I am (yes, I do acknowledge that I kill romance, yes han your right, I do). But I just can't help but miss you and acknowledge that I do (and yes, I hate acknowledging it, and YOU KNOW that han) and yes, this is the only time I am going to acknowledge it so read it and remember it!!:) ANLG
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12/26/2006 04:57:00 PM
Saturday, December 23, 2006
Been spending all my extra time with my han, and I have to say that its been GREAT GREAT GREAT!!I don't know how I'll feel leaving all these behind once again, but then again, I should be pretty used to it by now. I don't have much to blog actually, but I'd just thought that I should update this once in a while:)
P.S. Note to self, I have to stop spending money on cabs and stick to taking public transport. Yes yes, I'm going to be strict to myself and stop wasting money unnecessary!!
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12/23/2006 04:00:00 PM
Monday, December 18, 2006
I'm back!
I have been back since saturday early in the morning and I have to say, Singapore HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT!!I'm not enjoying a single bit of it at all!!hahaha:) Anyways, the trip to Japan was just shopping as it was meant to be, so some amt of money have been spent. hehehe. I pretty much changed my whole winter wadrobe, which wasn't really meant to happen but it do so..hahaha. I'm pretty happy.
On the other hand, I missed han so much, so very very very much. It was so weird without him, I tried getting him but I only managed to do that once. I'm really really really sorry, I was with my mom 24/7 so couldn't. I'm sorry han. Life was so different without you, but when I read your blogs, I realized that our insecurities were pretty much the same:)
Whenever we're apart, and I'm back for the very first time it would feel so right but yet so different. It seems to me to that we're never together but yet we have been for such a long time. I know this may not make sense to you han, but thanks for understanding. I love having you ard, being in ur arms, going out with u, doing silly things with u and even fighting with you (not on the phone that is). I miss everything about you but I realize that everytime once I leave, we'll be back where we started again. I hate leaving but i know that its inevitable. I wish things would go smoothly but yet I'm prepared for the worst. I know I must not get used to these feelings nor depending on you, but yet I can't help but feel and fall for you even more.
Signin off...
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12/18/2006 03:07:00 PM
Friday, December 15, 2006
DAY 7: Ya back my silly baby girl
I miss u jus way to much.. and will try to forbid all your outing next time!!!humpt!!!
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12/15/2006 01:51:00 AM
Thursday, December 14, 2006
Day6!!!!!!!..NUFFF SAIDD>>>>___<<<<
Baby i coming back.. do the happy dance..doing the happy dance
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12/14/2006 01:41:00 AM
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
my work station morning with out u!!!
Day 5:redemption is near.. baby u are so near i can feel your grace
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12/13/2006 01:38:00 AM
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Davis with new hair.. no diff
Old hair! New hair..hmm little diff
Day 4: kingdom come..Where is my Queen!! Well Today i work and work but i got the davis photos of my hair plus other stuff.. hope u enough it and feel me.. cause i aint feeling u.. so how baby???better improve.. i wan baby now!!!!
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12/12/2006 01:19:00 AM
Monday, December 11, 2006
Work Place!
Me working!!amazing
During lunch with out u>>>SADd Day 3!!!!: ME. Me . Work work work....Baby !!!
Missing u even more and today was nothing much jus work.. but i got ya some pics.. LOOOKKYYYY Not what we call golden moments of life but i m trying to draw as much as i can.. and i really miss u to much and the doctor says the only cure is u.. baby see i am even making corny and nonsensical phrases.. do come back k my darling
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12/11/2006 01:14:00 AM
Sunday, December 10, 2006
baby girl its day2: eAT CHAWAMUSHI.. i MISS THEE
Well today i went with my parents to visit my grandpa and grand ma plus ate so much..i ate nasi padang and a chicken rice in the middle of town which is delicious.. i'll bring u next time plus its next to raffles hotel so u can choose both.. i miss u so much my baby girl .. do miss me k!!!!
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12/10/2006 01:01:00 AM
Saturday, December 09, 2006
Missin U!!!
Jus 2MUCH2 take...Miss Pang!
Baby girl u just been gone and i cant tell u how much i feel the lost.. i'll try to do every day things to get back on track but it seems like i lost u.. u have been having fun i feel and i know its gr8 for u but some how i feel the need to be there when yr having fun.. cause u are my baby doll and i have always wanted to take care of u and to jus love.. and off course let love (which u dun do).. HAI YA~~~>_.<~~~~ Well anyways today i didnt do much and jus went out with my parents for lunch dinner..so practically i been a good boy.. well i woke up late and i did nothing but reading the whole day.. thinking what are u doing now or than.. how are u??have u reached stuff like that are jus so stupid.. cause i been trying to not care.. but i guess this is what love is called.. it is the ability to just lie in your arms helpless and let everything i fear and every thing i m come rushing out and baring my soul to u.. like a body lying on the shore as the waves sweep pass.. i miss u.. jus way to much.... BABY COME BACK!!! Spending all my nights, All my money going out on the town Doing anything just to get you off of my mind But when the morning comes, I'm right back where I started again Trying to forget you is just a waste of time Baby come back, any kind of fool could see There was something in everything about you Baby come back, you can blame it all on meI was wrong, and I just can't live without you All day long, wearing a mask of false bravado Trying to keep up the smile that hides a tear But as the sun goes down, I get that empty feeling again How I wish to God that you were here Now that I put it all together Give me the chance to make you see Have you used up all the love in your heart Nothing left for me, ain't there nothing left for me
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12/09/2006 06:31:00 PM
Player - Baby Come Back
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12/09/2006 12:26:00 AM
Thursday, December 07, 2006
My Sweetest Han
My silly han forgot about his phone yesterday and rushed back home to get his phone during lunch. Thank you baby han, your the sweetest!!:) XXXXX
Soon, I'll be back with you again. M U SO MUCH!!
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12/07/2006 08:09:00 AM
Monday, December 04, 2006
*Drumrolls* Time for appreciation!
I wanna thank my han for everything:) Absolutely everything! Yes, I know he drives me crazy sometimes and makes me so very mad that I just wanna storm away (or rather I do sometimes), but he is truly the best one can every have:)
First, I wanna thank han for only sleeping for 3 hrs and keeping to what he has promised me. And yes, I wanna apologize for not telling you that I had cancelled ticket without telling you. I'm sorry, so very sorry, and this is the only time i'm only going to acknowledge it, so there! (don't you rub it in my face again!) I know you really put in the effort and searched for it relentlessly. Thank you baby han, I really really really appreciate it:) Prob here: I booked han's and my tickets thinking that I would be able to book another for my other two friends that are going over to NY, but it turned out that the price increased so they're unwilling to pay for it (duh..) and the fact that both of them don't really know each other makes it even more impt to get everyone to return on the same date. But i've decided to rebook the tickets so no worries:)
Second, I'd like to thank han for making changes in his lifestyle and the way he does things to the social norm? hahahaha:) I really really really appreciate it:) Also, I'd like to thank han for spending so very much time with me on the phone, I know how you don't like it for thank you for all your patience in these two yrs + Furthermore, I'd like to thank han especially for always solving the problems we have, and working it out, never giving up:) Thank you baby han.
Third, I'd like to thank han so so so very much for helping me with those little things in life where I'd like to gain a upper hand in:) Thank you han, thank you so very much. MUack! I know my little probs are silly things but thank you for listening to me and helping me with it. In addition, I want to thank you for doing those extremely silly things and those so-called romantic things (I know I'm a romance killer, and a totaly not romantic person), but thanks for trying:) I do appreciate it.
Fourth, Thank you han for teaching to be honest with my feelings. Thank you han for teaching me to accept who I really am and not fear what is so-called "bad". Thank you baby han
HHmm...there are too many things to thank abt and too many things to say, so i guess I'll just stop here (because I can go on forever). For my baby han, thank you for everything once again. You really are the best thing that has ever happened to me and the best one can ever ask. Thank you baby han:) XXXXXX Really M MO W U N R M U!! (see if you can decode this baby han)!
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12/04/2006 06:51:00 PM
Sunday, December 03, 2006
Back again:)
I'm finally blogging again after such a long time:) Its been a wk since I've hit the slopes and all I can say is that it was GREAT! We had the best snow this year!! I had a great time there, although it would have been so much better with han there:)
I finally bought my skii jacket, some thermos, and a cap:) It wasn't really what I wanted but I didn't wanna spend anymore than $450. Anyways, I'm so in love with Burton's stuff now, can't wait to get my board and stuff in the near future. Hahaha.
I will back soon after finals are over, which I should be studying for now, but I will soon..soon:) I'll be in Japan for a wk before arriving on the 15th. So I'll see u soon baby han:) we're almost there:) MU!!
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12/03/2006 09:09:00 AM
Special thanks
I wanna first thank han for always being there for me. I want to thank him so much for teaching me everything, teaching me that vulnerability isn't such a bad thing, teaching to be in touch with my feelings, and teaching me to be honest with them. For how one feels can never be wrong, instead how you deal with it or face is the most important. Its just part of you, so there's no point of running away from them. In fact, if you really don't like them why don't you change them? In these two years, I've grown so much be it emotionally or as a person I've learnt so much.
I'm really thankful to have my close friends with me all through everything. Although each of them has been with me through different things and I've shown my vulnerability to them in different ways I'm thankful to have them. Thanks guys, especially to J.J, bel jie and my housemate.
I've learnt through these couple of years that it doesn't really matter how many friends I have, but its these few that matters (and you han). I might be swinging in the middle like a high school kid wanting to be more socialable and have more friends, but I guess my laziness and my decision not to play an active part makes it impossible for that to happen. I don't blame anyone nor I feel a necessity to bother about it because they're not worth my effort:) I'm not as afraid to show these emotions and feelings anymore, for some strange reason, being with han makes me feel that being honest with it doesn't matter. My housemate has been really nice to hear my feelings and often giving me her honest opinion on what she thinks or if everyone feels the same, which in some ways make me feel less vulnerable:) J.J will always be there for me I know but emotionally I open to her in a different way I guess, she has been through with me everything and I'm thankful for always having her. Also, Bel jie has been such a sweetie by telling me her experiences even though we don't chat much. For such, I feel really blessed.
I guess, there's nothing wrong with feeling these things once in a while, and remembering what I have is the most important for I know that I'm truly blessed. Its true that I might not be able to see them all the time (except my housemate:) ) but I'm glad that I have them. Moving around like han says has caused me many friends, some of which sour, some of which drifted, while others are just surface, makes it hard to keep friendships. I don't blame anyone for it especially my parents, because I love the fact that I had these experiences love the fact I'm able to study where I want, and do what I want. I'm thankful that my parents actually allowed me to do what I want without worrying about money issues. And this has ultimately taken a toil on my friendships, but there are no regrets. I love my life, and still wouldn't change a thing:)
my work station
morning with out u!!!
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